Changes, Never a Dull Moment

March 13, 2021

After 5 days at hospitals, it fantastic to be back home. It all started when last Monday I went for a blood transfusion. After going to the bathroom and returning without air, needing oxygen, the doctor wanted me to get a cat scan to see if I have blood clots, which in did. Right in my lungs. Those blood clots sure made breathing a hard work, and getting out of breath an easy occurrence after any simple movement. Which, in a way, is a life alternating event. If I am so limited with my movements, then even going from bed to bathroom became too much!

And so, from just being a “cancer patient” I became bed ridden and fully dependent… a new reality to get used to. So far, having all my kids and grandkids all around me each morning has been so delightful and happy that the days went by with joy and interest. Ty has been painting beautiful paintings for me, Keren does not stop massage my feet when she comes, and Roy is always treating me and making me feel better. Akiko keeps her magical cooking which always ends the only foods I can put in my mouth and enjoy, and Ariella, just looking at her beautiful deep eyes put a smile on my face. She made this long journey 8 months pregnant, and I appreciate it.

There is nothing like family in times like that, and I feel so lucky to be surrounded by my kids and grandkids right now. They brought me a “hospital bed” and put it in our living room right across from the view I love so much. The window was opened all night so I could hear the ocean and feel the cool breeze on my face. Early morning there were birds on the balcony, catching my attention, I can still hear them telling a tale of spring coming. I can look at the ocean and the waves, the blue sky and white clouds. I can feel the fresh air coming from the outside to caress my face. I can sit and look, and read, and write. And watch, and think, or just be… stare at this beauty for hours and just be with. Feeling blessed.