There is a Body That is Not the Splinter
March 3, 2021
How far have I gone down this journey? Is the bottom that much deeper? How far down the rabbit hole is this mystery journey going? Sometimes I wonder, at other times, perhaps most times, I am just going through the motions with not going too deep. My energy level has been lowering each day. Either because I cannot get too much food into my little body, or any other kind of the chemo effect.
I remind myself I made a commitment to myself to be happy. I have got to be my word… It’ weird, but somehow this thought will bring a smile to my face and a happy to my heart. I can still be happy, looking at the sky and the ocean, remembering how fortunate I am to have this beautify out my window. Then, something happens, A new pain, a new place that demand me attention. It is amazing how sometime our whole world can be reduced to “oh, my pain”.
The big question is, at this point, which will I let creating my day? The pain fighting for my attention? Or the miracle of life still happening all around me? I notice how easily my mind want to get completely sucked into the mystery of the pain. I also notice how this can take me down. I must keep my mind centered on the big picture, some big picture, whatever big picture. Since living in a small and narrow perspective of the pain, or the sickness, is too limiting.
I have read somewhere: “If peace comes from seeing the whole, then misery stems from a loss of perspective.” Sounds true if talking of pain, or any complaints whatsoever. One can have a complain of her husband not putting the laundry in place and concentrate on this tiny little spot, and it can feel like a huge disaster. As soon as the attention is back on life itself, being grateful for our gifts and blessings, getting out into the wide angel, everything changes. How do I keep this in my awareness box? When feeling a splinter, we must, while trying to remove it, remember there is a body that is not splinter, and a spirit that is not splinter, and a world that is not splinter… it can get challenging when the splinter calls for all my attention, and it’s the only way. Remember, there is a body that is not splinter… and a spirit that is not a splinter…
I love you.